My quest to get skinny

So, here i go!
Joe just got weight loss surgery. It made me feel happy for him, but jealous also. Now it will be so easy for him to lose weight. Granted, he won't be able to eat very much anymore, and if he eats the wrong thing, he can die, but still. They took out the gland that makes you hungry! So, can I stick to a weight loss plan? Sigh. I wasn't even skinny back in junior high and high school, so it's not like i would be returning to any spectacular body, or anything. Basically, I have never been really fit. So, assuming that I would be able to lose the weight I needed to, I would essentially be starting "the first day of the rest of my life as skinnymelanie." It would be a new person. One never seen before. So, I have started this blog. For me. And I love the computer, so I will stick to it. It's weird, having a "private" place in a very public domain. Like, if I were sleeping in a train station, or hiding in the closet at a football game. But, I can do it, I mean, it's like when I don't want to do something, but I know that my brain controls my limbs. So, I think, okay brain, make my arms lift that thing, or whatever. Clean, hands, clean! So, I know that I can force myself to go to the gym. I can say no to that piece of candy. I can make myself go to the grocery store and buy the necessary items for starting the diet I recently acquired on ediets. It's like the chain of command.
I control my brain.
My brain controls my limbs.
My limbs do what they are told.
So, if I can force my brain to tell my limbs to do what they are told to do, and ignore the rest, maybe I can get to be skinnymelanie.
My main problem is rationalization. One day, I think I need to lose weight. The next, I just think, whatever. I need to keep the desire to be skinny in front of me at all times. It is really the only way Satan hands out positive reinforcement, by telling us we are ok just the way that we are. Seriously. Sigh. But, I am going to tey and do at least one thing every day for my diet, so I can blog about it. Then, if I am a mess one day, I can blog abut why I ate what I did, so I can recognize why I ate junk, or did not exercise, and then come up with solutions for it. I am also going to weigh me and Joe in every day, so we can see our progress, and stay motivated.
Ok.
MY STARTING WEIGHT.
Yikes.


Okay, according to the scale in the bathroom,
174 pounds!
ARRGGH!

My Goal weight is
125 pounds
yay!
That means I have to lose approximately 50 pounds.
WOAH.

Ok, if I lose one pound a week, that is only a year and two weeks.
I can do that!

Remeber, skinnymelanie,
THINK POSITIVE.
YOU CAN DO IT.